over the holidays. i thought i could have gotten over it.
but. i was proven wrong.
the feeling came back again.
i dunno why the hell it came back.
but it proved one thing.
i couldnt forget about it still.
and that proved how difficult it was.
maybe. to me.
yes. i am already trying very hard to forget about that.
but i just couldnt.
its like the incident is locked on to my memory.
and i lost the key to it to unlock it from my mind.
theres a little chance that i may be able to find the key back.
but most likely.
i aint able to do so.
maybe im just borned like tt.
a damned guy.

...a very dumb, stupid guy.

ok. motivation doesnt work without disipline.
im experiencing that lols.
i want to study chem. but i see my com...
i decide to play before i study.
and most of the time. after i play.
i finish my hw and go straight to sleep.
so... i didnt get to revise after all.
lols. see my class ppl.
see a maths ws like see gold like tt.
1 whole stack of a maths ws takes only less than a week.
or maybe a little more.
and its now gone.
even mrs koh is surprised.
lols. kiasu sia. i see also a bit scared.
ok. a maths test turned out..quite ok la.
i got 20/25. lols
i didnt study much.
cuz im tired+ im late on that morning.
so no mood for revision.
but. can get 20 not bad le la.
for the amount of revision i made.
haha. now is the upcoming chem test.
hmm. im gonna get...
A1. so that my mind will think that theres no choice but to do my best.
to get A1.
but in fact.
i will get MUCH lesser than tt.
haha.